Coming Back
Im gonna start making more post and get back on here.
Im thinking about mixing it up.
maybe start new things and movie reviews.
Ive been watching alot more movies.
The Movies will either be newer or older movies.
Rapture Is With Us
So tired today I feel i have a list of things i need to do. But my mind is forgetting them one by one.
oky this wht i have.
vocal lessons and warms.
clean my sisters room.(and i didnt trash it this time)
meet up with my mom when she gets to canton center.
and find something to do from 10p,-3am tonight.
See if Netflix has Donald Glover: Werido Standup.
maybe make a My Yearbook again. I want to find a new Relationship
My horoscope told me not to start a new relationship today but idk
But its scary sometimes when the horoscope is right like 90% of the time.
Also work out all my solo/band idea and start writing songs.
idea and wishes
I want write.
Rapture sounds like a word of ruling
But its a word of Joy.
OR if your a gamer you know it as the City underwater in Bioshock 1&2
I want to play music.
/I either want to be a vocalist or Play bass.
I want the name of the band be called Rapture.
The word just sounds awesome to me.
I want to make movies.
be a story teller.
or
make music videos.
I do want to make to do my Senior Project i was going to do for Telepro.
A story of a man thats with a girl that treats him like shit and cheats on him.
he finds out. Breaks up with her at a party and just gets upset and starts drinking his friends try to cheer him up at the party. then he sees a girl at the party and starts talking to her and they get together. months past and they are uber happy.
they have a tiny fight of a the day of their one year. and they dont see either for most of the day. the next day they go to a party they both go to for a friend but not together. Well the guy plans to be make it up to her and plans a love song for her telling her how much her loves her infrount of the whole party. and she is all super happy kiss and live happly every after.
like i had the idead of mixing 4 music videos into that.
i only rmemeber like 4 of the songs.
bayside the wrong way
new found glory ft max bemis.. crazy for u
and
Say Anything…I wanna know your plans
So what else…
I want to love like really do.
but last girl i wanted to love things didnt work out becuz ppl have to be assholes and Judge her. Yesss i do think about her like everyday. But idk what to do about it.
but idk what that will do. I wish i could be with her but i cant.
But i also want to date someone new like i never met. since i cant date her.
but yeah what will be next in life i want something new. i need new beginning.
Whats next?
Im gonna make a big post either tonight or 2moro. I feel like in a writing mood and feeling sharing
Ive been thinking alot of what i should next. I dont really know what to do.
Into The Night.
Ive been thinking you can say what you want but in the end you may be judge by other or the ones that care about u. Thats when it hurts the people that you cARE about. Ive been there for you through thick and thin. So it hurts more.
But you cant be that one perzson that doesnt give a shit about anything.
I was once like that like people can say whatever the fuckbout me. And i would give of the “I dont give a fuck” addiutude to them. People and friends knew thats how i was.
I stood by that for a couple years. Juts my limits would break and I would hit that end of I actually do give a fuck and im hurt but they think im joking.
Im no tough guy. Im a sweet senstive guy. With all the gooy feelings when ya get to knoe me.
Done With The Rambling!
OKy So My life has changed so much.
Old emotions returning and people with them for the ride.
Tessa. We couldnt talk for a month or too cuz her boyfriend didnt like me.
and around that time i thought me and her were gonna try to work things out and get back together she left me waiting and didnt tell me she moved on. False Hope I was giving.
Then I met her
Andrea. At the time i called her Buttercup and I was her Bubbie.
Well we started talking I was happy for the first time in a while when i was talking to her. I mean u could say I loved her. and I did. With all my Gooy insides.
I wrote songs for her. Drew Pictures for her. and i try everything to see her again. I havent seen her since we were little.
Then the whole Judging came into the picture and I was sad again.
Taylor. Ex gf but not becoming friend.
My Best friend Apollo thinks im the reason why they broke up.
I didnt even talk to her whenever you to where dating.
Oky bak in December when she would flip out on him it was becuz he would tell us his friends that he didnt like her and say bad things about her.
and he was telling her somwething different.
He was telling her that he did like her and wanted to be together.
And I had to Tell her what i was hearing.
I know i shouldnt hvae Jumped in and told her but i didnt want to see her get hurt somehow.
I know Bros before Hoes and Im sorry for breaking That Rule
But all the other reason why they broke up I really dont know what they were i dont know the reasons. Like i said i hadnt talked to her since the day she blow up on me and pissed me off.?
Then last week she Texted and I want to be friends with her. and she was telling me how upset and depressed she was. and Sky txted me a fwd that she sent him.
Talking about that shes been u really depressed latly you can even ask Josh.
I was like yeah she started texting me yesterday and he replyed with “……….”
I havent heard from him in about a week. Come on sky wHats going on.
You are one my top best friends My Brother
why are u Ignoring me. why?
I didnt do anything wrong.
.
That was My Week
Now Me and Tessa are becoming Friend I Guess she has invited me to show to a bands on St pattys Day. ANd I said sure why not.
Its going to be a really awkward night for me.
Cuz I think I might like her still but she has a boyfriend that i still dont think likes me at all .
And I dont need any drama with this so
So Ill Just have let this week go and see how It turns out.
Happpy Birthday To My Sister-in-law Sarah Webster(red) for being 19!!!
I wanted to show this to Buttercup it was funny.
and its kinda corn cute but hay.
Love the most strongest feeling word Ive lived to know. I went years going on trying to figure out what Love really meant. I think i relise what it means. knowing the other person cares for like one has done before. I they show their true feelings. no matter how close or far away they may be physically.
I Have loved. im going to miss loving my buttercup.
Shes on my mind everyday and will be.
yeah….
I have to write new lyrics to “A Nocturnal Dream Ruined Every Affection”.
Which kinda is good and bad. lol but owell Ill think of some goood and better ones :]
